It’s 2010.  I would have to say that 2009 was a lot of things to me.  It was freedom, and yet more ensnarement.  It was love and it was loss.  I gained new friends, found new places, heard new bands, and every day was one day pulling at my roots to Boise.  And now it’s 2010 and when I look back at 2009 I don’t have much to show for it.  I’m still working at THCF, I spend my days working and my nights doing little.  Too much internet, not enough creativity.  My love life ground to a halt, and this year has been spent searching for some kind of ideal woman that doesn’t exist.  My professional ideals, music and acting, are nonexistent.  I did that show in February and have pretty much lost all connections I made from it.  I spend a lot of my time holed up in my room playing video games.  I don’t remember which ex-girlfriend of mine said that video games were horrible because they kept you from living your life¹, but it seems to be ringing true here.

So let’s talk about resolutions.  What I resolve to do in this year.  I looked at my resolutions for 2009 and I’ve failed every single one of them.  It’s never been that bad before.  I don’t know what happened, but by becoming less rooted in Boise, I have become more introverted in Portland.

I really only have two resolutions: work out and rock out.  The work out part is self-explanatory: I, like every other unhealthy person in America, am going to attempt to get back into shape.  Right now this is difficult because I have no desire to do this whatsoever.  Quite the opposite — I want to drink soda and eat burgers all day.  Some say people battle depression by drinking alcohol, but for me it’s soda.  In a way it’s good because it means I don’t get to become an alcoholic, but it’s also dangerous because I’ll get diabetes.  So, yeah.

The rock out part is just a funny way of saying I’m going to try and play more music, whether it be live or not.  I really haven’t been feeling creative lately, and it sucks.

I also resolve to update this blog more often, which could be dangerous because I don’t do anything blog-worthy.  Unless you want entries about how good Bioshock is², then maybe a few blogs a month is good enough.

I’m not going to go into detail about why I feel shitty.  That’s the stuff of LiveJournals and other locked away journals.  This blog is about the good stuff going on in my life, stuff that people want to read about.  So I should probably just delete this entry and move along.

But I won’t.  Cause I promised I’d update.

Happy New Year, everybody.